Men are only as loyal as their options.

Show me a woman who doesn't feel guilty and I'll
show you a man.
~Erica Jong

So I'll admit I was a little tempted. But I'll start from the beginning.

Almost a year ago I had an encounter with a sexy dreadlocked guy at this one party that I shouldn't have gone to for several reasons in addition to the one that follows. I hadn't been drinking, despite you skeptics who may believe otherwise. He was well dressed, and he stood head and shoulders above almost every other guy there. Yes, sadly, I have a bit of a weakness for dreads. He was obviously American. No, I don't have a weakness for Americans, but I could judge his nationality from his reaction to a little Caribbean dancing. Anyway, somehow numbers got exchanged and a couple phone conversations were had. We decided to meet at Tryst for drinks one afternoon. I was a little nervous, but I went anyway. He looked like a stepped out of a GQ magazine, but he still had a little of his own personal edge. His tongue was pierced. Unexpected, but oddly attractive. We talked a bit, and I was informed that from then on "the ball was in my court and bouncing..." All I had to do was make the move. We parted ways, he graduated, went to grad school in New York, and we didn't see each other again. Luckily I was intelligent (and scared) enough to let the ball keep bouncing. It bounced for nearly a year.

Last week, trudging up the hill from Starbucks and on my way to the dreaded Physical Science Lab, I spotted him breaking the corner at the Engineering building. In one of those moments, when you know that your next decision could be crucial, I whipped out my phone and sent him a text. It was him, he was on campus...and did I want to hook up? Being a little deprived, I was tempted to say yes...but I didn't. I didn't say no either. Didn't say yes or no for about four days now. Last night, I went on the Facebook, and saw that he added me to his friends. I checked out his profile, and he clearly has a girlfriend. Immediately, all temptaion was gone. Now I know we weren't planning to elope, or to do anything of any particularly upstanding behaviour...but still. He has a girlfriend! Two unattached people can have some fun if they want, right?

What is it that makes men have no loyalty to their women? What's worse is that he's extremely intelligent, comes from a great family and is very cultured. Yet he would still do shit like that. I guess it just makes me wonder. Granted that this isn't what I was looking for, is there any hope out there for women to find committed men? I'm sure his girlfiend has no clue about this adulterous side of his. My cell phone's now turned off to avoid any further conversation that he seems rather persistent in continuing.

Sigh. I could have, I would have, but I also shouldn't have. Glad I didn't.